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I've been trying to carve out a mid-day hour on Tuesdays and Thursdays for creative #writing. But, today, I'm just not feeling it.
Part of me fears if I skip it and don't make myself do it, I'll stop doing it altogether - as is my ADHD wont. Another part of me fears if I make myself do it, I'll burn out on it - as is my ADHD wont. :ablobgrimace:
I think a part of the drag on getting my butt-in-seat for creative writing yesterday is that I just finished a 16,000 word story (which, holy shit, that's cool) and now I'm looking at what to start next. Begin a new story? Putter with ideas & world building? Do some smaller exercises or bits of flash fiction? Play a solo journalling RPG as an interlude?
I know this is also a thing I need to learn how to work past. But also I'm very, very tired this week due to a handful of not-pleasant reasons.
Also, what's long frustrated me is that almost none of the advice I've gotten ends up working, with regard to making butt-in-seat happen. I don't want to be a melodramatic special little snowflake, but my brain doesn't seem to operate in expected ways.
The executive function doesn't. The willpower circuit is burnt out. Body doubling just doubles social anxiety. I need to gently approach myself sideways, for fear of spooking me and sending me crashing off into the woods. But sometimes it works.
@lmorchard I know we didn’t get to know each other much when I was at Mozilla but good heavens that sounds so much like my experience
@lmorchard I'm in this picture and I don't like it
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